17:31

holy SHIT i've been busy in the last couple months. i haven't slept in my own bed nearly as much as i've slept in other people's beds (and not even in the sexy way lol i'm a petsitter). finally HOME for a couple weeks before my next two week stint. ~The Holidays~ sure are a thing, whew.

i'm so hungry and i have no idea what to eat. i have some frozen red bean buns buuuuuut i had a couple for breakfast. hmm. my favorite neighborhood anarchist café is closed on Mondays, dangit. i GUESSSSSS i could go to the grocery store, but ehhhhhhhh...

17:43

today has been a helluva rollercoaster. housing insecurity is the fucking worst. all i've ever wanted in my adult life is to have ONE home where i feel physically safe. ONE home where i don't live in perpetual fear of harm. ONE home where the rug won't be yanked out from under me at the whim of a shady greedy scumlord. ugh.

13:42

if a leftist activist organization tells you "we have bigger things to worry about" when you bring up conflict resolution or accountability, RUN.

if that org would rather cut someone off entirely rather than hold one of their members accountable for even a minor conflict, RUN.

especially if it's cis men telling this to women/nonbinary/genderqueer/trans folks.

i know this sounds... logical, right? except i just experienced it in real life this week. (again.)

listen to women. listen to trans people. do not deflect. YES, we are living in fascism right now and it's terrifying and we need to be doing everything we can to fight! but the fight against fascism starts at home. if men (and cis people in general) are not willing to do better, they are PART OF THE PROBLEM. it doesn't matter if they've done lots of good activist work in the past and present. or rather, yes, that work itself matters, but it does not make anyone exempt from being held accountable for their actions.

i shouldn't have to say this to other grown-ass middle-aged folks in the year of our Gord 2025, but here we are.

all that aside, i'm having a pretty good week and have worked on some music! recorded a new track and remixed a couple others that i'd recorded back in June and July. very ready to drop a new album once i re-listen to it on as many different speakers/headphones as i can (my usual pre-release routine). i can't believe it's been A WHOLE YEAR since i released pâro!